Today, I lost the love of my life.

But I got to keep my best friend. So, as long as he's not completely gone then its okay. Its really hard though. I'm gonna miss our nights together. I loved when he cuddled with me when it got cold, and how cute he looked when he was sleeping.

We're just too young to start making plans. I mean, we have our whole lives ahead of us, and settling down right away is kinda scary. I'll always care for him, and I'm sure he'll care for me. Its better that we came to this decision now instead of waiting 5 years. Imagine it. What if we moved into together right away? We'd go insane after a few months! XD! I was scared that I'd come to hate him.

I don't want him out of my life. He helped me through some tough times, and I'm so grateful to him.

Its honestly hurts, but I'm gonna be okay. I know this. I feel it. Its better this way too. I don't regret anything 'cause what we had was real.


So...

Now what?

Well, I'll tell ya! Time to think about my future, and where I actually wanna go.

Which is where?


eh... I have time to think about it.

Alright! Hence Forth!


I'm done!

Theres a blizzard outside my door....

Tomorrow is officially mine and my bfs 1 year anniversary!! I'm so happy! We're going out to eat at Typhoon! (aka the best restaurant around here) Its awesome. I want to draw a picture of us but every time I try and draw something then it doesn't come out the way I want it, but I think that happens to everyone.

Anyway, this isn't going to be a long journal.

Okay I'm done!


Ashiei


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Just like the title says. I wanted my original account back ^^ I don't know why I chose to leave this one, but... whatever!

I don't know how long this will last but I wanted to come back and share my artwork with my old friends. ... If you're still around.

Anyway, stop by and say hi! ^___^

loves!

-Ashiei

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I'm really nervous from some odd reason. My hands are shaking and my stomache has vomitting butterflies floatin' around in it. What the hells wrong with me? I just woke up and started shaking, and no I wasn't cold....
Yesterday was awesome! Peoples came by and visited me... just for a while though. I missed everyone! I was in here alone for about 7 hours before anyone really started getting online and talking. I told Tom Tom to come visit me. So he came over and took me on a drive. That at least got me out of the house for about 30 minutes.
Now I'm just waiting for Steph and her parents to get home. I don't want to go home, but I do want to get out of this house, and maybe go do something with some friends. Yesterday I was waiting for a certain someone to get online, but he never did... he's probably just trying to avoid me now... for some stupid reason I'm sure. Well whatever... He can do whatever he wants. I'm starting to not really care. If he doesn't care then I don't either.
Geez, I was up all night till like 4 in the morning watching tv, then I just fell asleep on the couch. ^^ I like that couch. T'was comfy and then I wake up at 9:30. Wow, 5 hours of sleep. Dude! And ~Samuze's cat slept with me too... what the heck!? That cat doesn't like anyone! Nope.

Okay, I think I'll leave you all with that. ^.^

omg! new journal-ness!

okay, so today I was at walgreens and I found an awesome masage chair!!:boggie: T'was a wonderful chair. Filled with relaxation and.... more relax...ness. I really want one. ^^ I would love to come home everyday to that. It would be great.

I won't be getting on that often anymore. You've probably already noticed... but yeah.. no internet where I am. I'm going to be here at 's house for the next day and a half... yeah. They're gonna leave me all alone... here in this big creepy house!! I swear every creak is nerve wracking....
Anyway, I couldn't find anyone to come with me.. which really sucks...

okay, I'm done! Bye peoples!

ashiei